Beach Party

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 21:33:37 GMT

I have not written on LJ in so long. Lets see.. Life is good.. well, its ok. I have a job but they are not open yet so I have no money (yet). I havn't found love but I have made good friends. I don't know what is coming next in my life but I hope it's better than school. And.... that's about it.

Im excited that people are happy and in love... they just forgot to bring me along with them. Being single Sucks sometimes.

I hope that everyone who might read this (if anyone) is doing great in life! I wish the best for all of you. (even if you don't like me or maybe want to shoot me... i wish it to you too)

see yas later!
Amber

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 01:23:21 GMT

Who needs friends anyway? I mean, shit.. who likes those? People who are there for you when you need em? People who actually call to see how your day was? What!? Oh and people who dont stab you in the back.. yeah that would be nice

WHAT THE......?!?!?!?!?!

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 05:42:23 GMT

So I dont know why the heck people can be such retards! I just dont understand. Sometimes I want to run up and give them a hug and others i want to just punch em in the face. (not a friendly lil, "hi your an idiot" punch.. a real "im gonna knock you out" punch) I know it is a hard time and everything but why hurt? Why pain? Why drunkeness? AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

....and that was my rant.

So other than minor details.. I am happy. Things could be better but I have realized that getting the things that I want requires me to make changes within.
I told my mom that I am going to have the most amazing husband in the world. She said back to me that if I want the most amazing husband, I have to become the most amazing wife. So im gonna get on that! haha

school.... work..... life

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 07:08:03 GMT

So school started! yay..... can anyone hear my sarcasm? haha. I like most of my classes. Biology is going to be a royal pain in the butt! Ohh well, i have to take it and I better just suck it up and learn it so one day I will understand biology.

I have no job... what the heck!? Hopefully that will be a different story in the mourning. Nikkole and I are job hunting! YAY!!!!!!

Life is going well. Im enjoying myself more and more every day. I like it here in this town. I kinda want to live by the beach for a while though... could be fun

thats about it... ummm.... yep

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 18:17:24 GMT

YAY! I AM SO HAPPY IT IS NOT EVEN FUNNY!

I was sent angels. I did not know they were angels until they left although I now know it and Im amazed! It is a great feeling and I love it. I also saw that people are getting along... things change, people change, everything comes out to be great! CONGRATS on that... haha.

I just want to tell everyone that with a little Faith, Trust, and a little bit of Pixi dust.... ANYTHING is possible!

!

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 02:34:55 GMT

SO life has been a roller coaster of things these past few weeks. I have gained 4 new really amazing friends. One has left me and now the other three are leaving. This bites.

I have come to realize how much I love small things like rain, and swimming, and things like that.

My day was amazing today!
I was in the boat with my numero uno buddy.
I pained by the lake!
I got closer to Brittany whom I did not like before.
I did so many wonderful things!

....and then

My car window decided to break
My cell phone got soaked and now i cant hear anything
I tried dropping in on our ramp out in the ghetto... yeah, Brittany did it and I can't.

It seems like my 3 buddies here understand me so well but then It sucks cause I feel like CRAP! and I hate certain things. It sucks!

hopefully tomorrow will be better!

.....

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 00:33:46 GMT

Have you ever met someone and felt like you connect with them so well? They seem like they could be someone you would marry. yeah, turns out that he walks into my life at the total wrong time! Maybe its just me but it seems like so much of what he says and does, I am right there with him. He is an amazing friend and I think that is all that will come from our friendship but it excites me cause now I know what really want from a guy.

Other than that, friendships are getting a lil better. I miss Nikkole!!!!! I am excited that I am not fighting with people anymore! Should make for a good birthday and rest of the summer.

YAY! BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!!! :-D

why does this town hate me?

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 05:56:42 GMT

Im not sure what kind of change I am going through. I am starting to try to become a better person although its hard when I am fighting with people. I want to change into the nice me. I don't know who stole her but I want to find her. I will even give a reward to anyone who knows where she is.....

there is one person who is helping me become better. Since he is an amazing person and I am around him all day... I think it rubs off onto me! YAY!

I can't wait to get out of this town yet I dont ever want to leave.
I couldn't imagine anywhere else where I could just drive around and look at no buildings... all feilds. Roll my windows down and feel the wind through my fingers while I sing all the songs I know. It is almost like heaven.

Soon..

...

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 07:11:17 GMT

I am only mad at the fact that I actually tried to be your friend. What in the world was I thinking?

Almost got in a fist fight with some new jersey hoes tonight because two of my best friends can't shut their mouths. Good thing I am smart and I dont drink.

whatever

everyone is updating... so AM I!

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 14:48:31 GMT

Hmmmmm.... So what's new with me... Well, I am working for my parents now instead of a REAL job. This SUCKS monkey butt because I don't get pain and that means that i don't do anything that I might have to pay for. (exept when I go on my road trip.. i will blow lots of money then) So yeah, driving boats all summer long might be a drag. Plus I am in pain 98% of the time b/c i hurt my tailbone when I jumped off the 45-50 foot cliff in Arkansas. (yeah, it REALLY hurt) Im wakeboarding a bit. Just a bit. Not too much. Not too little. Fun Fun. I want to get a job at the new Lil Anthonys in Leseberg... who knows.. If I do that I will be working here weekdays. Going to school 2-3 nights a week (other nights HOMEWORK) and on weekends my real job. So, that would mean that there would be aprox 0 time to hang out with friends. Unless of coarse I gave up something like... sleep. Yeah, I guess I could do that. Maybe... hmm. Still pondering all of that.

I have kinda come to the conclusion that I don't feel like trying to be friends with some people. I mean, if your friends then you will actually talk or maybe hang out. Well, we dont talk.. we dont hang.. were not really friends then are we? hmm.. whateva

Boys suck balls. Yeah that's right. That's all I have to say about that...

I don't know where this life is leading me.. I pray that it is going in the right direction.

Sat, 13 May 2006 17:38:04 GMT

Wow! I did not know i was possible for me to do BUT I did it! I was awake from thursday around 10am until Saturday mourning at 6 am. that's a total of around 56 hrs. HOLY CRAP I have made neclaces, i have eaten A LOT, I have been to the beach and back, waisted a lot of gas driving people around, been in fights, had lots of fun and ended up really sick.

So all in all, i slept about 6 hrs last night and it was amazing but then it also sucked! I can't breath through my nose.. it is a horrible thing. Oh, and my voice sounds funny!

that is my amazing and crazy times... enjoy

my rant

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 22:06:11 GMT

So im not sure what the heck is going on right now because guys are being difficult. He is either too young, not the right one, my friend, lost, in another state, or just never gonna work out. SO it kinda sucks and I am getting frustrated with boys and guys and men and ahhhh! I think the entire male gender is against me right now. WHAT DID I DO!? I mean, yeah I have been on this "I am happy being a lone" crap and I am kinda sick of it. I don't like looking for guys cause it never works out that way. I suck at these kind of things. I don't know. I think I am just having withdrawls because I realize that I went from every day hanging out with guys to now hardly any guys to hang out with. I need boys, I havn't grown up with this whole "girly" thing goin. I DON'T LIKE IT!

ESPECIALLY WHEN SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX CALLS ME PUMPKIN!

I just can't deal with this. I feel bad. I don't know what to do with myself. This is why I need to go off to school.

OH! AND
my manager wont let me put my 2 weeks notice in! What the heck is that?! I don't get it.

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 04:47:17 GMT

so i have decided that I do NOT like drugs or people who do them. I mean, i already knew they messed with your life but having this kind of situatio thrown your way lets me tast a bit of what goes on. In the past week I have experienced some new things that I wish that i hadn't but i guess you learn from yours and other's mistakes. right? I just want to go back to the old Amber who was not around all this crap. People need lives. I need some kind of purpose. I know who and what the answer is I am just afraid to face it. Hopefully this week will be better than last.

just a random thought....

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 06:16:57 GMT

So I was just thinking about something. I know this si going to sound cruel and mean but it made me think of this....

So my ex boyfriend has a new girlfriend.
I have heard MANY different things about her.
Mostly that she has a big head (literally... she looks like a character)
others say "no way! Thats ____'s girlfriend. She is weird looking"
and things go on and on.
I have yet to actually meet her (i have had conversations over the phone)
so, I can't really say what I think about her.
I just know from what others have said.

SO now I am sitting here thinking..
when we were together did people say that about me?
I mean, i know that my head is proportionate to my body...
but they might have said other stuff....

All in all, this has kinda showed me that talking bad about others,
So to make the pain in my heart go away,
is not the best thing to do.
simply because she is in the same situation that I would be in
if we had stayed together.

I just thought of that. haha

OH by the way.. does anyone want to come see Deftones, Story of the Year, Thrice, As I Lay Dying, Atrey, Dredg, Silverstein and Funeral for a Friend on Saturday with me? I really want to go and I WILL go by myself if I have to but it would be nice if someone else came! :-D

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 05:52:46 GMT

Even though I have been so happy these days I feel like im missing something. Kinda sucks but then again I am SO glad that I am not like I used to be. I love the feeling! :-D

Words and actions couldn't explain what goes through my head when I think of him. :-/

Weird people live in Clermont.
Weird people in my classes!

I have become addicted to ice cream.
It's bad and I am going to go through withdraws!
ahhhh!!!!

"Would you light my candle?"

this is my rant

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 07:15:55 GMT

SO in the last couple of nights I have gotten real sick and tired of people complaining. Most of the time it is at work though it seems like even when I come home or i will just be around people and someone is complaining! I don't get it!? Why is it that people can't just be happy and content with what they have? Can't people just realize that sometimes things DON'T go as "scheduled" or whatnot? For example, in the resturant business servers/waitresses will be scheduled until say 8:15 or whatever time. Well, that is the time that people STOP TAKING TABLES, NOT LEAVE THE BUILDING! Once your cut and your not taking tables, that is when you go back in the back and do your extra work. yeah.. it can take a while if your SLOW.. but some people are faster than others. People jsut piss me off cause they will sit and complain to me or whoever that they are still at work at 10 and they were "scheduled" to be off at 8:15-8:45. It just doesn't work that way! Two of our girls cried tonight.. GAY! Usually I am nice and ask if they need anything or need to talk but tonight... NO! Stop crying and do what you need to.. or don't need to, whatever it might be. I guess it is just me being not as sensitive towards people... i dono. I am happy to say that I am content without someone. Yeah, it took a while.. and now that I have my schedule and what I need to do to get things going.. that is what I want to do. I could care less about any boyfriend. haha.. So, yeah.. Im glad. :-D ps. I bought the movie waiting today! IT IS AMAZING!!!! I LOVE DANE COOK!!!!

I love you!

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 07:23:44 GMT

So I am sooo glad that I got to hang out with Nikkole today. She is truly the coolest person I have ever met. :-D Just remembering all the good times we have had together makes me smile. Plus, I know that there is plenty more memories to come in the future! Her birthday dinner was amazing! I love being part of the family! :-D makes me happy! So I would just like to say.. I LOVE YOU NIKKOLE!! YOUR THE BEST!

Besides that.... well, im kinda bummed out latly. It's a crappy feeling and I don't like it. It might have something to do with Valentines day coming up... but maybe not. Hopefully things will look up soon. I want things that I cant have. I don't have time. I dont have the energy and I surly dont have much emotionally. Lame (yeah i said it! LAME!)

:-D

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 04:19:23 GMT

I just had this sudden burst of happieness and I figured I would post and say hello.

not much goin on. Lots of school. Study study study. ahhh! yeah, it kinda sucks at times but then it is fun as well. It's nice to know that I am working towards something. Well, kinda. I think im gonna quit friendlys so, if you havn't gotten your free ice cream you should hurry up and come in so i can get you some! haha! I am prob getting another waitressing job but maybe in like Leseburg or Winter garden. Somewhere different. I will be moving in with Hannah for like a month coming up soon. (I have to give someone my room!) Stupid people! haha.. but yeah, i don't know if i will be staying with her for a long time or just a month. who knows....

I have started not caring so much about things lately. Like, people who have just not done me good in life or have caused drama. yeah, I guess you could say that i have deleted numbers from my phone and it feels good.

Starting new things in my life. I don't like fighting about stupid nonsence. It just isn't fun!

yep.. that's about it. Just wanted to share. Thought I might bring some happieness around. lol.

:-D :-D

GO SOBER FUN!

:-D :-D

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 05:26:21 GMT

Happy Birthday Joshathon! You know you'll have a good one tonight! :-D

.....Im moving.....

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 19:51:36 GMT

Don't EVER tell me how to drive! I might just punch out your window.

So this weekend wasn't too great... yeah, i met like 10 guys.. but none of them are worth anything. Plus I think that they all just want to sleep with girls. I effin HATE friendlys! I might quit... who knows.

thanks for acting like were actually friends... thats cool.

I went to thw circus, wasnt as fun as I hoped

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 20:25:13 GMT

Out with the new, In with the old! haha.. yeah, I know it is a lil mixed around! I ment it to be that way! Gosh, get off my case about it will ya?

So i went wakeboarding today! That was amazingly FUN! I loved every part of it.. well now that most of my muscles are ALREADY starting to hurt.. that could be bad. But other than that I LOVED IT!

I hate work. I think I might find a new job. Rachel went to Wal Mart today for one... maybe I will do that. Im sick of dealing with mean, hungry, angry costomers. AHHHHHH!!!!!! Kill me now.

I want everything to be ok, I hope that this wont break us apart. I am sooooo sorry. I wish I could make things better. I know your mad. I love you too much!... by the way.. i still havn't picked up Spud. I will do tonight. :-) Call me! Please..

oh great.. time for work. YAY!

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 06:31:38 GMT

HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that was a good post.

bring in the new me!......

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 05:23:55 GMT

2005: I made friends, lost some, and to some... you know even though all the fights we have had.. I still love you more than anything! I enjoyed going through the crazieness of graduating and then going through a summer of love, lust, and the most amazing times of my life. Those times will never be forgotten. I started a whole new experience and started college. I have grown, stayed the same, and everything else. Now that it has come to and end I look back and see one of the best years yet. Though I look forward and get so excited because of how amazing this one will be. Lots of hard work, determination, friendships, and more work. Gotta love it. I am excited.. Look out 2006! Here I come!!!!

On other notes:
Was it the first "wait, i havn't gotten a hug from you yet"
or was it the car rides
but it might have been the other 3 good bye hugs
or i think it was waking up and seeing him 3 feet away
actually i know when it was,
that last hug.
the one when he laid next to me and held me for that short while.
That was it, the moment when I remembered so many moments.
the moment that I realized that I was a fool for him,
also the moment when I knew that no matter what... he still cares.
And then I was happy just b/c I spent the first hours of 2006 with him.
:-)

i don't understand people.....

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 16:22:14 GMT

I don't understand how the one person that is in my life that I thought I could count of for everything, she would always be there for me and all that good stuff woiuld sell out on me. She lives in Tennassee and is down for christmas. So I would think that I would get to hang out with her right? Well, i guess not because she brought 2 boys (one being her new boyfriend) down here with her. So i guess they are more important than me because she has spent her entire time down here catering to their needs. yeah, they didn't get to go home and all but that shouldn't mean that she ditches her friends and "family" for these guys. It just bothers me a lot. I mean, do I have the right to get mad at her? Should I drop everything and just act like Im not hurt because of it? Well, I can't so that is just not happening. Whatever, i will stop going on with my problem...

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and everything. Anyone get any cool gifts?

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 03:53:06 GMT

Ok, so if you know how to pray or believe in God then please, please pray for my family. Tomarrow is the day that we have to go into a meeting that tells us weither our business is being shut down or not. I need all the support I can get for this one. I know that there are some people who will read this and pray for me and my family. I thank you. It is something that if we do get the business taken from us it will be life changing. For my entire family. I don't want that to happen. So please.. I believe in the power of God and that anything can happen through prayer. Thank you soo much for doing this. It is well appreciated!